My husband came over and tossed 4 sheets of chicken scratched paper on my desk. I looked up with inquiry and he said “I think every husband, or wife for that matter, needs to know what they’re up against!” Looking down at the paper “5 ways to help your wife with PTSD” I kindly told him that PTSD is only one facet, (he put his finger up to hush me) “I can only manage one thing at a time my love. I can’t write an encyclopedia in a day!” We both got a chuckle. Clever guy! Let the tips begin!
- Acceptance – The first step that I learned over the years is opening up my heart to accept the challenges my wife faces. It’s incredibly hard to put anger aside at times. PTSD can put an enormous stress on a marriage. Communication will breakdown…alot. You’ll struggle with her irrational behavior and delusional thoughts. You’ll try to turn the irrational into rational and the delusional thinking into reality. What you need to accept is that PTSD is a dark power that distorts her thoughts and emotions. Your wife cannot control it and it frustrates her. Most times, not all, when the dark power starts to take control, she knows it, but is afraid to tell you. People who suffer from mental illnesses are usually embarrassed, feel guilty, inferior, and fearful. The fears that creep in create that fight or flight range of emotions that you may experience.
- Compassion – Empathy saved my marriage and continues to save it today. I’ll tell you that activating this superpower was/is not easy! I’m a strong-willed, no nonsense type of person. I usually walk away from anything I perceive to be drama. My natural personality didn’t know how to respond to the PTSD symptoms that my wife endures.
I’d find myself saying things like:
“I don’t know why you can’t be stronger.”
“Why do you make everything that’s easy so hard?”
“Just pick up the phone and deal with it!”
“I have so much stress and you can’t even handle the simple things”
Can you imagine how she must have felt and how far back that put us both? My eyes started to open when I read Positive Intelligence which lead me to read The Four Agreements. I learned that all of our minds play tricks on us. My mind became filled with noise and anger when PTSD started to rip my wife away. The first step to activating empathy was taking a step back and not taking everything so personally. In the movie “Knocked up” , there is this funny scene where Seth Rogen is frustrated with his pregnant girlfriend’s hormones. He politely screams “fuck you hormones!”. I love that scene because he separates his girlfriend from the uncontrollable hormones. I still find myself saying “F-U PTSD,” but I’ve come to realize that my wife doesn’t behave the way her ugly PTSD friend does. She can’t control it and never will. I put myself in her shoes as best I could and I found a lot of room for compassion. - LISTEN – This one isn’t rocket science my friends. If you want to unlock compassion and empathy you must stop the crazy world around you and genuinely listen to your wife’s pain. Feel it if you can. When she is struggling do your best to get her to talk about the underlying emotions and maybe (if she is ready) the issues that are hurting her. If you do that, I promise you that you will learn how to make both of your lives better. Take the time. I wasn’t very good at this for the first 2 years or so and I suffered greatly.
- Look into Her Eyes – I’m not talking about puppy dog love here. I mean really look into your wife’s eyes when PTSD is in full force. Once you see it, you’ll never forget PTSD’s ugly face. My wife’s pupils tend to get dilated and her body tense as if she had drank 10 red bulls too many. At times you can see the fear or anger on the surface, but complete blankness behind the eyes. When she’s not worked up and PTSD is present, her eyes roll with the look of sheer confusion. PTSD kills the memory. You can see it when it’s there. Help her see it too. Gently point out when you think PTSD is active. If she can start to see it, both of you can cope with it better and do your best to limit the triggers.
- Fear – Try to eliminate any opportunity for fear to exist. I’m still working on this. Our society doesn’t create the best foundation to eliminate fear, but you can in your own home and daily life. My wife and I started to see that fear is the fuel that powers PTSD. Everyone has different things that provoke that feeling of fear. We began by working toward and eventually eliminating fear in our communications. Once she understood that I cared enough to listen and had compassion, she began to slowly lose her fear in being vulnerable with her words. We started to have open, honest and constructive conversations. We worked to make it so that our finances are never an issue.We also did our research. We read as many spiritual, meditation, and compassion books as we can to keep our minds clear and strong.
I hope that you find my learnings helpful. I am consistently absorbing new information. If you have any tips of your own I would love to hear them in the comments section.
Signed – A loving husband