I started a blog to find and fit into a community of people like myself. I am amazed at how many strong and loyally supportive people there are surrounding PTSD and other diagnosis of the mental persuasion 😉 You all have given me strength beyond words. It is from that support and strength that I have begun telling my story in the real world. At 40 years old, I am just recently able to see that I am not alone in my struggle, even if I sometimes feel that way.
Night terrors are one of the worst side effects of being brave and vulnerable in telling my truth. Making progress though, feeling positive and trying with every ounce of strength left in me to keep going and living. I am not alone in that feeling and fight.
I learned tonight, once again, that I am thin skinned. I have rainbows and unicorns in my head when I write and publish my posts. I get so excited because I genuinely want to add to the love and support that is out there for those like me. Sometimes though, its not all good. I have a love/hate relationship with the comment section. I’m not out to hurt anyone so I am hit like a ton of bricks when something negative comes my way. Some people don’t understand a euphemism or idiom..at all. As a person who LOVES idioms, it almost always takes me by surprise when another person can’t comprehend them and take the phrases literal. Then there are others who simply enjoy being sad. I didn’t believe that anyone could enjoy being sad, but it’s real. Spreading sadness isn’t pretty, nor is it enjoyable for the rest of us who are trying so hard to keep the reaper at bay.
Keyboard warriors feed off of each other and spread negativity all over the internet without a thought to how their words may hurt that person or those around them. People have feelings; celebrities, politicians, writers, or other people who are just trying to build a support network and gain momentum for a cause. In my case, I have seen the absolute atrocities that were had through many movements throughout history and modern day and I strongly feel that we are in the midst of an historical movement for PTSD and other invisible illnesses. Survivors and those who are living with a mental illness should respect and support one another. I dont agree with every blog post out there but that doesnt give me the right to criticize nor condemn.
In a time when people are being torn apart, it is people like me and you who need to stay close together. Next time you think about voicing a negative opinion, think twice and remember that the people behind the keyboard have feelings too.
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